Showing posts with label Greenville Rescue Mission. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Greenville Rescue Mission. Show all posts

Friday, March 16, 2012

day twenty-one: under the bridge

"What is the kingdom of God like? And to what should I compare it?...To what should I compare the kingdom of God?" (Luke 13:18, 20)

Jesus often started parables this way, and would then compare the kingdom to something from everyday life: a seed that grows into a tree, or yeast that leavens a batch of flour.

What I experienced today, however, seemed anything but everyday. By 11:30 this morning, I was under a bridge in a tent village of homeless addicts. Tom, a counselor I visited at the Greenville Rescue Mission (see day seventeen) invited me to tag along on his Friday afternoon visits and to bring some bag lunches.

Suzy and I set up a little assembly line in our kitchen on Thursday night to get them all done. But eventually we had twenty bag lunches made, each with a PB&J sandwich, a bag of potato chips, an apple, and a bottle of water.




Ready for delivery

I met Tom at the mission and we headed towards the bridge. We turned off the road, hopped a curb, and drove down what wasn't much more than a dirt path paralleling some train tracks until we reached a clearing underneath the footings of the bridge. There were about a dozen tents scattered around in various states of disrepair, most with holes in them or tarps over them.


We first met Adam, who was still in his tent and still high, drunk, or both from the night before. He immediately tore into the bag of food and gave us the latest news from the camp. "He got arrested last night. I don't think anyone's staying in his tent." "He's making meth (but don't tell nobody)." "He's not here. He's working somewhere."

Adam walked with us around the camp as we left bags of food outside the tents of people who weren't there or were still asleep. I pictured these bags being like manna, a simple gift of food that appeared in the morning (or afternoon, as the case may be...whenever they woke up).

He walked us across a small creek to see Nicki, who was also awake. She and Adam shared a hug and a cigarette while she got her stuff together to leave for the day. Tom talked to Adam about getting some help and I talked with Nicki. She asked me about what I do and seemed genuinely surprised to learn that I was a minister (which kind of made me feel ashamed to be one, and that more ministers didn't come out here, including myself). Seeing her and Adam interact, and talking to Tom about the other people in the "village," I found myself thinking about how close this community must be, if for no other reason than simply to survive.

We got in the car and turned a few more corners so we could go to another camp on the other end of the bridge. We saw more tattered tents, some tucked up under the overpass of the bridge, and even a rough shelter made with scrap plywood. We got to meet Dierdre, Barry, and someone I recognized - Clarence, who we gave a gift card to just yesterday (he was one of the two guys walking across the parking lot, and he recognized me, too!). Tom and I talked with them, listening to their struggles, particularly where they would go when they get kicked out of that location. (The city has given them a deadline of March 23rd to be out.)

After trying to get them some help, Tom asked each of them how he could pray for them and then led us in a prayer. And right there, standing under that bridge, holding hands and offering our hurts and hopes to God, I felt like I was actually doing God's work...what Jesus would have done. I felt like I was right where God would want me to be, where Christ would be - participating in God's community here on earth, even under a bridge.

"What is the kingdom of God like? And to what should I compare it?" 

The kingdom of God is like a tent village of homeless addicts living under a bridge...

Monday, March 12, 2012

day seventeen: pay it backward

"I don't know."

This short phrase can be an admission of ignorance, an apathetic mumble offered with a shrug, or the greatest statement of faith that we can offer.

In regards to today's activity, all I can say is, "I don't know."

Today started with me not knowing what to have for breakfast. I opened the fridge and this is what I found:

That reminds me: we need to throw out that casserole from two weeks ago on the bottom shelf.

As I pulled in to Dunkin' Donuts, I was all ready for today's culinary care. I was going to pull up to the window, pay for my order, and give some extra money to the cashier to pay for the person behind me in line. A different way to "pay it forward" (pay it backward?).

But when I turned the corner of the building, there was no one in line, and no one pulling in behind me. Not a very good sign. Luckily, as I got to the window, a car came up behind me.

The rearview mirror

My total was $9.70, so I handed the guy a $20 bill. I told him to keep the change and use it to pay for the person behind me. After I got my food, I pulled away slowly to watch what would happen. The car pulled up to the window, the driver extended his arm to hand the cashier his money, and...

...the cashier took it!

I drove away, pissed! Then I thought...maybe the cashier realized what he was doing and gave the money back to the driver; maybe the driver was better off than me and didn't even need the money, passing it on to someone behind him; maybe the cashier needed the extra money himself, or maybe he just wanted to pocket it. I don't know.

Later in the day, while visiting the Greenville Rescue Mission to find out how our church could support their work. While there, one of the counselors started talking about a guy that has never wanted to live at the mission. The counselor would occasionally see him, they'd have a meal together, and the counselor would extend the invitation to the mission again, but the guy always preferred to live in the woods. This homeless man's name was Phil...the Phil we met on day three!

I don't know where he is. I don't know what happened to him after we saw him. I don't know if he will ever find a place to stay. There's so much I don't know, so much I can't know, not just about Phil or the driver behind me but in everything we do. I just don't know.

I'd like to, though. But if I'm learning a lesson through these 40 days, it's that I can't, I won't, and I really don't need to. (I grit my teeth as I type this, fighting every keystroke). I can't know and I can't control how others respond to what I am doing. I may not ever know if anything that we've done is helpful or meaningful to anyone. All I can do is offer what I can, and trust and hope that some good may come out of it.

There's lots of different ways to translate Romans 8:28a, but here's the way I read it: "But we know that in all things God works together with those who love God for good."

If nothing else, I do know that.